i had loved you so well,
and still do. you are
my brother,
i will be waiting, at a
distance, for the chance
to do something
noticeable.
maybe i could write
something, i
thought.
i didn't remember
that you were
settling,
back then,
when we first knew
each other,when i gave you
every inch of what i'd
hidden.
back then,
you were waiting for
something older,
friends you had known
and loved and
could love, again.
i am writing this
and my heart is
hurting me, you are
only the first person
to never lie to me.
i can't need you.
i can't need you.
i can't need you.