Im a writer that doesn't write I tell myself that's it's normal That it's natural That I must have writers block
I know that's a lie
People ask me what I want to do I say screenwriter They think I'm smart, witty, creative All of the above The look they give me is a drug I'm one of the special ones I have ideas To them I make things
But I don't.
I like to think I do. Sure I tell myself that. But I'm stuck writing stories I'll never finish Down in books I'll never read
Why do I not read them?
I think it's because of a belief that I am inadequate And therefore anything I create must be that way as well The belief that someone like me shouldn't be able to create I think that's why people look at me adoringly when they hear "screenwriter" They want to love their ideas as much as they think I do mine. They think I'm one of the ones that made it out Which is something I desperately I want to be
So for now I am a writer that doesn't write Which sadly means I am not a writer at all But maybe I spoke to soon Because if I wasn't a writer I wouldn't have written this at all