i walk a tightrope of emotions
teetering,
trying to keep my balance

leaning too far to the left
results in sobs that tear my soul apart
and a searing pain in my heart
i know can never be taken away

falling slightly to the right
causes me to laugh
long and loud.

maybe a little too loud.
and for a little too long.

but i laugh.

i struggle to keep a delicate balance
of the things i could not express
even if the whole sea was ink
and the sky a piece of paper.

but sometimes the balance tilts dangerously to the left.

it is in these moments
that i wish i didn't
have to
keep
this balance.