curled in bed eyes pinched tight whole body trembling, sleep escaped hours ago this is how it is trying to talk to you.
like pulling teeth with pliers clenched in a small boy's fist a wry grin on his determined face, knotted eyebrows will ache for days
like being pulled by a speedboat tossing and turning in the wake skin on my palms already gone taking a breath, giving up, letting go, crashing hard onto cold water's surface
like my chest giving out every breath catching on its way in hands digging through a too messy bag inhaler nowhere in sight, help nowhere in sight, breathing is too hard to handle right now
like a beach beyond the caves crawling through at low tide, sand gritty under fingernails, sun stinging on flushed cheeks lounging on sharp boulders that dig between shoulder blades, then rushing back home to escape being trapped for the night toes tickled with goodbye kisses from the dark, growing waves
through missing teeth and breath, under wrinkled sheets, and sand and water, I can't hear anything. I never could.