Wish i am strong enough by this time. Wish i had the courage to face him later. Wish that i could hug him tight by the time that i saw him. Wish i could kiss him again. Wish i could reach out and grab him and feel his arms around me again. Wish i could share another day with him and share the laughter again. Wish i can smell his armpit and feet. Wish i could say i love him endlessly. Wish i am not craving for him anymore. Wish i am not crying at night wanting him to just appear in front of me. Wish i am not crying on the bathroom floor begging God to bring him back. Wish that i had him not only in my dreams so that i would not want sleep so much cos i know that dream is the simplest way for me to feel him again. Wish the gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart game is not that strong. Wish i didn't wished these last Wednesday wishes.