he kissed me and left
a hollow taste in my mouth,
one that reminded me
of the smell of cigarettes.

I tried to write
an epic poem once
but there were no
heroes.

me, I feel brave
when I get out of bed
in the morning.



"you can't do this anymore"
he said
"you're taking on too much"


"I'm fine"
I said
"you're not"
he said

"you're fighting a war."

and

"I don't care that you're winning look what it's doing to you."


I got up with the alarm tomorrow
and got dressed in black
and it's all I had time for.

did ophelia drown herself or was she
held
underwater
and who
killed
cleopatra
and can
love
live
when all else is dying


in my head faces were screaming
screaming why wouldn't it stop
something inside me wanted to
climb outside and crawl through my eyes
only to be burned by daylight.

the sun is too bright for me these days

I am
a goldfish
in a desert.

he kissed me and I couldn't breathe
but not
in
a
good way.