What I cannot understand is this;
I am addicted to the pain of suffocating
Like the thought of jumping off the cliff
Or hoping to get crashed by a car
Or drinking a glass of poison
I just need to have a taste on that dying moments
The urge to feel the ******* pain pulling me in
Then when I feel it, I’ll drown myself in it
I even ******* dive in it until I forgot
Which way is the surface
And when I finally got out,
I look for another pool of misery to dive into