Sometimes when I'm at home by myself
I lie in bed just thinking of all the mistakes I made.
Should i have said this?
Should I have said that?
Should i have done this?
Should I have never done that?
Did I not care enough?
Did I care too much?
Was I too clingy? Too annoying?
Did I love you too much?
Should I have been there for you through certain things instead of giving you your own space like I thought you needed?
Did I yell too much or did you not care to listen to anything I had to say?
Did I do too much?
Was I horrible in bed?
Was I too adult for you?
Should I have acted more like a kid?
Maybe I was wrong for getting mad at you when you made a mess.
Maybe I expected too much because I knew you were better than this.
Maybe I was wrong for thinking you would change.
Maybe I changed too much and you could never catch up to where I was no matter how hard you tried.
I ask myself these questions and I blame myself for never being enough.
When in all reality I was enough but you just tossed me away.
I could be the most beautiful girl in the world with guys on my *** everyday
but even then you would still get scared, make an excuse and just walk away.
Maybe I wasted my time.
Maybe I should have acted better.
Maybe I should have kept my feelings to myself
and not have written such long letters.
You think I'm not good enough but someone else in the future will call your bluff
and only then you will see what a mistake you made when you finally realize I was enough.