It wasn't my first time drinking But it was the first time the earth moved beneath my feet The first time my head spun like a top and the ground made it harder To keep straight Kings cup and mike's harder lemonade helped me achieve this Unwanted goal Along with the memory of you
My feet slamming with every step and I try to think of you I don't know why I do this to myself Other than wanting to feel sorry for my being on a daily basis
But for the first time when your memory hit my head It's like my mind put up a brick wall Not letting you climb over it No matter how hard you tried to jump over No matter how hard I tried to pull you up The wall got higher And higher Until I couldn't see you
And that's when I fell back Through the fluffy clouds in my head Into the bliss of my brain And started thinking about those chicken nuggets in the freezer As I mix some of that mango moscato with cheap illuminium cans
The sun's lining hits the grass
I lay on the couch Remember how I couldn't even try to remember the pain And liking it
It makes me start to wonder If this unwanted goal is my savior from you Or the devil for me
I'm just letting everyone know that this was like the third time I had ever drank and I don't plan on making this a thing ever. I've seen how alcohol has affected family members and I'd rather not put myself through that. that mango moscato was like candy though.