You said you love me but I would not understand your situation. How could I understand if all I can see is you going down to your self-destruction alone? Bring me to your level of understanding, let me explore your thoughts, open the gate to your heart widely, I am standing right in front of your wall, knocking on to the gate of your heart. Let me in, let me show you how much I care about your beautiful being. You are not alone, so do not shoo me away. Me… too want to carry the burden you have been carrying. I will go with you to Heaven, earth even hell, no matter what. Please do not hide anything from me… Just hold my hand, as long as I am with that tall figure for me to follow, that broad shoulders for me to cry on, that gentle heart for me to love, that man’s soul for me to adore, I will spare my whole life with you. Ollie, I love you.