It's almost midnight
and I'm stuck here
laying on my bed that wraps me so tight
in warmth and comfort
I wish I could stay here forever
where it is safe
where it is soft
but I'd be lying if
I told you
I wouldn't leave my bed
for you

I told myself I had a crush on you
I lied
it was no longer a crush
it  was a slight obsession

I told myself I would get over you
I lied
I fell for you
I can't get out of this hell hole

I told myself that I've lost hope
I lied
There was a piece of me
that could not let you go

I told myself you would
never fall for me
but I got a something from the
way you looked at me

I told you I didn't like you
I lied
Please look into my eyes
and see my pain of lying to you
Please just see me
Notice me
Find me

I finally told you in a letter
about my feelings for you
but by now
it would be a lie
because I've given up
to prevent the pain from
eating me alive for these pass months