I felt myself falling deeper and deeper into the darkness as the light started to fade. I struggled against the weight connects to my soul as it pulled me farther into the deep. Reaching out my arms hoping someone would grab my hand all I felt was air go through my cold fingers. I gave into the darkness as I kept falling and the last speck of light left from my sight. I fell hard against the asphalt painfully as my legs refused to to hold under the weight any longer. I fell to my knees and even they could not hold under the weight. My eyes growing heavy as tears streamed out of my cold blue eyes. Tears continued to fall down my face until there were none left to shed. I was weak and vulnerable not knowing where I was or how I had let myself get there. Unable to lift my head I sat there in shame, guilt and regret. My heart had closed off. I was weak and had hatred towards every bone in my body. It was cold and grey. I realized I could not recognize who I was anymore. Who am I? Why am I here and how did I end up like this? I felt as if my life were in a thousand pieces that didn't match up and never would. Drowning, I gasped for air. I breathed in water making me choke. Coughing and breathing in water, I desperately fought it as the weight of guilt and regret tied around me took me deeper into the darkness. I gave up fighting as I sank deeper. Soaked in my shame and regret the darkness soon took me over. I found myself alone and paralyzed yet I didn't care. My life was in ruins that could not be put together again no matter how hard I gave it my all. U was never to be lifted again.