last Easter I wrote a poem for you with rhyming words and beautifully constructed stanzas about the way your hair looks and the way I wanted you and the way things were changing but - April came back around all too fast this year and I don't write poems like I used to. this isn't poetry. this is October nights with glazed eyes, burning throats and so much trauma, so much trauma, so much ******* trau- this is November afternoons smoking my lungs black and tears that i drowned in for every day of that month. this is December mornings when I spent all my money on Christmas decorations because I thought it would be my last. this is New Years Eve, clutching her back and sobbing into her shoulders because I couldn't believe I made it - how the hell did I make it? this is me thanking her, and her, and her too for stitching me back together. this is champagne and the grace of God. this is February when you came back to me and as much as i wanted to throw dirt back in your face, I held onto it in hopes of planting something new. this is March when it wouldn't stop snowing. this isn't poetry. this is April, this is me taking the dirt and burying the idea of us six feet under. this isn't poetry, this is Spring and this is the last time you will be mentioned with it.
You took away too many of my seasons. The poem I wrote last year is called Spring, if you want to see what I made reference to. Leave a comment, enjoy your Easter. **