We had history
Twisted with mysteries and untold truths
Rivers of awkward silences and unspoken of confessions

Days of you at my house within my walls
Creating an intimate atmosphere
That soon began to fall
After I told you I was going far
But it wasn't confirmed
You were so quick to assume
And drop everything that was so bliss
You never wanted to presume
What you stopped

Except I don't blame you
We all are afraid of random goodbyes
And the thoughts of never having a moment to say 'hi'
Ever again
But since then I refused to pretend that it didnt hurt
It hurt that you quickly wanted to be out of a lurked
But intense relationship/
friendship/ I don't know what the **** it is

And I remember the lips that were so full and tender
Thy only lips I'd ever lock
The only lips that made me question my own sanity

Now I see mere value
And profanity
I'll never forget the (a)fro you use to wear
I never been in so much lust
When you'd walk from a distance
While in public I'd look at you and feel pride
That I'm the girl you loved to hide
And swear it was only cause you cared about my well being
I was deceived to believe in your false seeing
And I waited for you to admit it
But till this day you avoid it
Is it pride?
Or am I just not good enough that I must go back and hide
And even though you apologized
I still have a load of 100 kg of unnecessary  pain on my chest
And I hope everyday
That you'd stand by and say
That you are deeply

outrageously

honestly

extremely

sorry

words will always cure me