In this quiet time of night, I lie alone and prey to the bitter pain of joy's absence. Lost in my mind's shallow thoughts the sharp fragments of happy memories since shattered ***** at the sensitive fringes of my sleep.
Sleep: Nature's sanctuary
A quiet haven, an island set apart from the daily consciousness of life where my thoughts may at last run free.
An island with white sandy shores as far as the eye can see. Blemished only by my solitary figure walking the blue water's edge.
And the forests of my paradise, their deep green density gives substance to my world. Often I stop to ponder their far reaching greenness.
The warm subtle breeze carrying the fragrance of this foliage across my face, fills my nostrils with the pleasures of nature.
And occasionally a gull overhead, drifting unchallenged on the soft warm currents of the azure, as free in his world as I in mine; lends companionship.
All of the sudden in the beat of a heart, from no where a large black cloud appears to smother the sun's warm light, turning the blue sky and green foliage black and the white sand that I once walked upon a cold gray.
And just ahead of me lying there in death's humiliation, my winged companion; soaked and scorned at the dark water's edge.
This cold room and bed the greatest part of my conscious moment, and the sound of a distant train bell mocking the destruction of my comfort; its havoc upon my sleep done it now moves on. Saddened I once again wade through the shallow bogs of my loneliness, and the pains of memories of the love and life i'd wasted return. This painful sleepless night a most cruel retribution for my past. So firmly entrenched it seems I may never return to my paradise; yet remain in this cold room to suffer the long night's tortures.
The warm sunlight, and gentle caress of the water's pulse upon the white sand.
And overhead my pure white friend again drifts on the warm currents of air, heralding not my return but praising my presence....
...for my presence alone, gives life to this warm yet oh so precariously balanced paradise.
The white beach with its warm sand leads me on my journey to the morning, as I walk the blue water’s edge.