Remember when I laid in bed
with tears running down my cheeks;
The pain was too much to handle, because how could the sun shine without you next to me?
Or when I would drive at night
Drifting toward your neighborhood;
Looking for a distraction from the constant reel of memories of things that never would?
Or when I saw you never cared
not even from the start?
You don't because you're back;
you seem to think you've never harmed me when I'm still torn apart.

Will I ever be more to you than a piece of flesh and bone? Will you ever see that I loved you. I loved you.
I l o v e d you.