What is this that I feel
Like drowning in life
And living in dread?
That when the words
I am supposed to keep
I give away?
What is this that I feel
Whenever I dont even
Want to feel?
That slices through it
All, everything yet
Means nothing?
What is this that I feel
When I dream it to
Be a dream?
But in truth it is
A nightmare that I
Cannot wake from?
What is this that I feel
Obliged to say I don't
I don't care all,
Even though I know
Deep down that
I do?
What is this that I feel
That I can't handle?
That I want to forget?
It chews at my my heart
Threatening to beat to death
And yet..
What is this that I feel?