To fall asleep tonight I'm thinking of last night's dreams and tomorrow's nightmares all at once like re-runs of the same television show aired years ago by another person in another body, and I wonder if they felt the distinct absence of everything... a pain that has no source, but that can pierce every nerve in my entire body until I'm screaming louder than the ambulance's siren. At night we are all passengers waiting for the sunrise's journey. And tonight I will think about how the nurses feel when their patient dies before they arrive at the hospital, if they feel the pain that exploded from the victim's last breath, if their ribcages feel just as hallow as the ambulance itself is without anyone to rescue. I flip on the television in my eyes, and suddenly all I see is static.
I have been so stressed lately with the millions of things I haven't been getting done. Been the victim all day of a raging headache. I hope this makes sense, please let me know what you think... as always, constructive criticism is very welcome **