So, as you know, I'm the kind of person
who prefers to traverse the worst news first
before dispersing with friendly pleasantries.
But, if I may speak free and honestly
I'm tired carrying around the genes
that subject me to overcome obscene
obstacles from your insecurities
as well as the fears of our ancestors.
I know there are lessons learned in character
karma before switching out from one car
to another but sweet jesus, sometimes
it's hard to take a break or find space to breathe!
And you wonder sometimes why I cannot
ride over the same roads you built, spilling
oil, drilling mountains, supporting wars and more
systems that are killing the poor and/or
brown men and children. Well then, for my health
and well-being I need to at least find some peace
in the things I can control and support,
things and people that build a rapport with
my mind, heart and soul, so my blood flow don't fly
so high from the things I cannot control
like all the old school phobias and the
nervousness lurking in your minds before I
was even born. There's no scorn from me, but
maybe an occasional forlorn sigh,
only because I love you, and know you're trying.
But please, please... I appreciate that you
want me to succeed, but to be honest
I really, really don't need your help, your genes
are enough of an obstacle course through
hell to get to heaven, because at some
point my being is gonna get sore cause there's
no way in hell you can convince me to
take more or just accept that that's the way
it has been when I can see other paths that
have been, perhaps less traveled, if at all,
leading to happiness and freedom to
be the change you have been seeking from the start.
But we cannot do it if our hearts hurt
or lungs burn or can't find ways to work and
learn together because we are, it is
& that's it.