2 days no sleep
head full of dreams
heart can’t even beat
but full of desires
My chest blazed
engulf with passionate fire
You can see it in my demeanor
I’m tired
Im tired of people ,places, things
Life , reality, dreams
Theres pictures in my mind but they out they frames
I try to sleep but my eyes won’t stay close
There no direction ,no hope ,no lanes
for this road 2 happiness
More like the road 2 the insane
no promise on what I’ll find
No promise on what I see
Can I ask u
Do u believe in possibilities
I wanna know if you feelin me
Can u find my open heart
Along with my warm intentions
Tho we’re so far apart
Do you fear my honest words
And regard my lovely affection
Would you traveled at the speed of light
if I offered u protection
Without you ima dark-heart, lost soul in need of correction!! -ET

She said she love me,
I knew it was a lie,
A face of a angel but she a demon in disguise,
She cut me deep,
But she didn't even have a knife,
She left me broken,
But I refuse for me to cry,
The reasons she left,
I will always wonder why?
For me to get you back,
I would always wanna try,
If you're looking for pain,
You can see it in my eyes,
If you're reading my hurt,
Cause there pain up in mind,
With this pin & paper,
I can easily tell a lie,
Say my hearts okay ,
But it really wants to die,
I'll narrow my pain,
As I walk down this line, I
I'll say I'm okay,
But nothing really ever fine,
I'm out in the open,
But I really wanna hide,
If you riding my wave ?
Would you really feel my tide?
If you hop on my train
Are you really down to ride?
If you knew my thoughts
Would you wanna read my mind?
I told you this love,
Will always be one of a kind,
But when you broke my heart,
I knew love was a lie,
So I use this pin & paper
To bring peace up in my mind,
A hour glass of love,
I guess we ran out of time - ET

They say a lotus means purity
But how can we have a love of a lotus
When your soul not pure to me
I wish I can open up ya mind
So your ears can hear my clarity
I watched your soul
Causes your true meaning stares at me
Yet knowing the truth
I still fall for you
In every way you want us to be
I gave you the key
And I wish you could see
I'll go to the depth of the sea
For us to receive
A love that was never meant to be
But you opened me
You set me to the highest tree
Ripped my soul and let me free
Now do you care for me
Are you there for me
I ask a lot of questions
To see if you agree
Do you feen for me
Like your eyes feen to blink
Am I heavy on ya heart
They our love with sink
I wanted a permanent love
But we ran out of ink -ET

I’ll die for this
I’ll die for you
Remember the nights
I broke down and cried to you
Talking about our hopes and dreams
Hoping to put them inside of you
Not in a ****** way more a mentality
Bc I was fantasizing living my life with you
I had it all planned out
guess I ****** up the vision
Learning the true consequences
of my selfish decisions
When you find out how I’m living
I just hope I’m forgiven
I should of listen
But my ears wouldn’t comprehend
and before I had you
this **** was fantasy
You plant a seed
it grows some roots, a branch and leaves
You’re oxygen from your tree
Was received but I choked
And need distance so I can breathe
I didn’t know you would leave
I didn’t know you’ll fall off
And blow away like the leafs
Why you leave
you’re safe with me
You can confide in me
I wish I could take the pain
Lift the weight up off your shoulder blades and try to store the pain inside of me
I want your dead love
To revive with me
Cause to my past transgressions
you believed in me
I guess the light I see in you
is what you see in me
And your light is honorable
But letting my guard down is vulnerable
And love isn’t something forceable
And I’m not sociable
So I can’t express how I feel
When I’m hurting you.. -ET