i never wanted to ask about the omnipotence of god
and yet i did
i never wanted to ask if my body is just a manifestation of ones and zeros
and yet i did
i never wanted to ask the possibility of life beyond us humans and animals
and yet i did
i never wanted to ask the very existence of each and every one of us
and yet i did

i never wanted to get the existential dread
nor did i want to get its manifestation in my head
i never wanted to have the disorder that i have
but yet
i did

and i knew that
from the moment i saw god himself
like a reflection from a mirror
looking straight into my eyes
he told me
"you had to do it
because someone has to"

maybe people are right
when they said
"i would look pretty
when i smile"

but for now
i am happy being ugly
till the day
these perverts die

i don't envy the drunkard with the alcohol he has had
nor do i envy the man who had the finest of cigars in his hands

i don't envy the rich man for the money he gains
as much as i don't envy the couples living in maine.

i don't want a lover, or be sustained by money and vices
i just wish to live in happiness, with something that suffices

pula.
kulay ng galit.
kulay rin ng determinasyon.
kulay ng mga gigil sa hinanakit
ng kataasan-taasan
kulay ng mga may pasyon
sa pagbabago sa lupang tinubuan
kulay ng galit sa opresyon
sa mga mala-pasistang maylupa
kulay ng tunay na lumalaban
para sa bayan

ngunit isang hipokrasiya
para sa bansang ayaw sa pula
ay tintado ng pula
ang mga tigang na lupa at kalsada
tintado ng pula
ang dalawang watawat na sinasamba
tintado ng pula
ang ibinotong buwaya sa kongreo
tintado ng pula
ang pag-urong natin sa progreso

sa oras na sa kasiyahan ay gipit
hahawakan ang pluma
na ang kapit
ay mas mahigpit sa bigti