what is it
that makes other’s thoughts of me
more important than my own

how is it
that my smiles are wiped away
the second someone says i shouldn’t smile

who decided that
i can’t be happy without
all the people i don’t have

i don’t understand
i don’t understand why i feel this way
and if i say how i feel
nobody listens
but even if they did they wouldn’t care

please let me know
if anyone ever has the answers