Philia

Philia Jun 2019

Changes.

When people change,
and the feelings fade,
Everything is not in your favour anymore,
and you can't even compromise,

Would you stay for the sake of your comfort,
& tolerate even if it is hurt?

Or would you get up,
and move on?
.

Philia May 2019

Flux.

It is always a perfect sunny day before a dark stormy hurricane.

Love is always the prettiest right before you finally disappointed, again.

Philia May 2019

8th of May.

As far as I can remember,
8th of May was my unlucky day.
I found myself awake, up all night
4 years ago
With tears in my cheeks;
Looking at the window,
looking up to the stars.
giving up.
Love was never really worth the fight
At least, that’s what I thought that night.

4 years later,
today
When I thought that I have found someone that completely know me,
& love me,
Turns out,
Today, I also shed a tear.
Maybe today is as disappointing as 4 years ago.
Maybe love is never really worth the fight.

Philia Apr 2019

The Opposite of Happiness.

The opposite of happiness is never sadness,
or pain,
or blue,

It is always indifference.

Philia Mar 2019

Mute.

I need time to be alone.
To think,
to contemplate,
to pray.

I need time to be left unbothered.
To write,
to talk,
to find a muse.

I need time to be in a cafe,
or in a MRT or bus,
or in 40th storey building, looking at the dawn,
or in anywhere else.
only by myself.

I want to mute everything,
and everyone before me.

& Let my mind speak.

Philia Feb 2019

Season.

what is not seasonal in life?
You name it.

Climate?
Hobby?
Fruits and crops?
Fashion?

or even love?
They are all seasonal.

Philia Feb 2019

Midnight Prayer

& Tonight
I kneel down
& pray
& cry
hard.

For everything is not in my favor.
For everything seems didn’t work out.
For everything is useless.

I’m just tired, you know..
Trying & failed
I’m just too tired
& I didn’t want to live this way.

who are you
I asked myself;
As I didn’t recognise myself,
Anymore.