your mind
beautiful but
out in space
a ticking bomb
and the countdown began when

your eyes
a dry tap with nothing left to be shed
burning red
from the fire in you

your arms
scarred and bruised

your lips
missile pressed in between
ready for you to burn it down

your heart
black and blue
but kind and sacred
despite the sins

i let you grow inside me
you grew flowers in my lungs and seeds in my bones
making me feel everything and nothing at once
you lived in me like my own
but little did i knew  
that like a parasite
you were feeding on me
laying eggs on my skin
you took all my self and
poisoned my mind and soul
with your toxin
you called love

this new year
instead of  "new year,new me"
let's make terms with our old shelves

you put on more makeup to hide the circles under your eyes you got by spending all night thinking why the hell didn't we work out?

i tried

but one afternoon,
when i was lying on the grass,under the sun with his arms around me, i looked into his eyes and had a déjà vu


only then
i realised how they much remind me of you

and how i never really got over you

i'm just angry that you
made me bitter about love