Paulamae

Paulamae Aug 2010

Monster

When you have so much potential in your life
You have the whole world ahead of you
Millions of thousands of hundreds of options
Just out of reach

But there's something holding you back
Something that won't allow you to move forward
And keeps dragging you back to a life you once had
A life you can't stand

It's like a monster that keeps tearing you down when you reach the top
A beast that refuses to stop
And you continue to fall

What must you do?
Slay this beast?
What must be done to make this monster leave?
Only you know

Because the monster that keeps making you fall
Is you.

Paulamae Aug 2010

You Keep Me Alive

i want you
you know i really do
i want to feel your heart beat against mine
for that is the only thing that is keeping me alive
my soul is trying to fly to the greatness up above

hold me one last time
and put your hand into mine
tell me that you love me and you never want me to leave you
i promise, i will do only what you want me to
kiss me, tenderly under the moonlight
i will not leave you tonight
for, i need you more than anything or anyone
you're the one keeping me alive

please, darling, stay a little longer.. im not ready to fly
without your heart beating next to mine, i will die
i realize the life we want cannot be
our perfect world - just you and me

but, you and i do not live in reality
so, my love, the night is ours to keep
let's keep this a secret, and keep it hidden deep.

Paulamae Jul 2010

Ocean

Calm, serene, unending blue
Gently lapping over you
Dozing warmly, adrift on air
Peaceful silence everywhere

Choppy, rocking tossed around
Churning, roiling, will I drown?
Help! Where did the calmness go?
Ocean, are you friend or foe?

Slowing, drifting, touching sand
Is it better seen from land?
Peace, serenity back again
The ocean , certainly, is a friend.

Paulamae Jul 2010

True Love

True love cannot be explained
It’s something you’ll die for that is not feign.
It’s not just three words tossed around here and there
It’s something you feel, something worth care.
It’s not about princes with princess brides
It’s the feeling of warmth when you meet their eyes.
It’s not earned by sword or trial by fire
It’s the feelings of a heart that will never tire.
It’s not in the malice of an evil grin
It’s the warm sweet voice you here in the wind.

True love cannot be explained. Because if you truly love someone
*.... you can’t say why.

Paulamae Jul 2010

Daydream

My eyes are shut but I'm awake,
How much more can I take ?

I'm not weak but not yet strong,
Everything I do, I do it wrong.

I bite my lip and pull my hair,
I wish this life was always fair.

Things in life you cannot hide,
Your dreams and nightmares come alive.

How much more can I take ?
My eyes are open and I'm not awake.

Paulamae Jul 2010

You Won

If I said I fell in love with music
Would you know it’s because of you
Because the words I heard a million times
Finally became something true

If I said I fell for you
Would you understand the reasons why
You said when I was around you
I had no reason to cry

If I said that I meant it
Would you believe that I meant yes
Even though I hesitate
You won’t have a second guess

If I said that it was over
Would you believe what I had done
Cause you’ve fought the battle for me
And my heart you’ve finally won.

Paulamae Jul 2010

My Pride

I sit with a heavy bag of regret
it's all just extra weight.
I let the guilt freeze in my bones
and leave nothing left up to fate.

I dance in the shadows to hide who I am
my painful fear fits like a glove,
and I'm whispering songs of sorrow and hate
for the old me that I used to love.

I keep my face painted with masks
and all my guilt wrapped up inside.
My confidence left and I'm lonely
and with it.. it took all my pride.