I like to cry and throw a fit
Even the dark day I was born
I am a sad and drooping rose
With only one horrible thorn

I did not like people around
I would sit, curse at them and scorn
I am a sad and drooping rose
With only one horrible thorn

My heart could never feel the love
Deep inside I felt sad and torn
I am a sad and drooping rose
With only one horrible thorn

People still tried to get close to me
I would open my mouth and warn
I am a sad and drooping rose
With only one horrible thorn

I will never show a smile
This is an oath that I have sworn
I am a sad and drooping rose
With only one horrible thorn

But the day will come, I will die
Then haunt people after they mourn
I am a sad and drooping rose
With only one horrible thorn

The world as a whole can only be described as one thing:
Color

The mass that makes this piece of land all
Is the substance of life
Drained from the mind of every color

Yet some eyes only see in black and white
But sight can do so much more
Doesn’t it hurt to only see two colors?
Two sets of life?

Wouldn’t vision be so much more relaxed
If the eyes could see, everything?

Pain only comes in black in white
Yet throw them in with the color of life
The color wheel
What do you get?
A rainbow that fills the sky

Why is white forced to fight with black
Together they do not make red
Yet in some eyes they do
A thing not created by vision
But by mind

Should red fight with blue?
No it must not!
For if it does, there is no purple
Two lives enjoying each other
Becoming one

This should be the world!
A color wheel
A circle of life
A wheel that any color  can live in

Let the eyes go the limit they can
Be the wheel
For if the eyes only see black and white
They are blind from reality

My mind is stuck in one place
A place where I think
…and think
…and think
…and think
I am a robot
Controlled by my own brain
Could I be creating my own world?
In my mind?
All I do is think
…and think
…and think
…and think
I am starting to see my world
I will call it…
Reality

It all started one night
To wait for a moment
And have it feel like a life time
Surrounded by many people
But to feel like the only one
Waiting…
Wondering…
What will I see?

Life travels suddenly in slow motion
Then around the corner of my eye
Walks a vision
One that you swear will make your heart stop
And mine did
It stopped just long enough to make me realize
I remembered how to smile

You never really think true love exists
Until you find it for yourself
How do you know you found it?
That question I cannot answer
For there is no true way to describe it

So how do I explain my feelings for her?
Like this…
Close your eyes
Think of happiness only
Now picture something more
Something bigger then your whole happiness
Hard isn’t it?
To difficult for words
That is true love in my eyes
I cannot explain it
Because no words can match the feeling I get
When I see that beautiful face smile

I spent part of my life thinking there was no happy
There was no smile
There was no feeling
Until she proved me wrong
And I am glad she did

To feel again was the greatest gift
To embrace my heart was amazing
Thanks to this special girl
To miss her every second
To love her every second
To want to kiss her every second
Just to want to hold her every second
Coincidences in mind?
No…
This is a sign of my true love

Promises are hard to come by
But I made a promise I know I can keep
As long as I love her I will not leave her
Because to leave when still in love
It would be like not breathing to me
I wouldn’t be able to live
Not when I love this girl so much
My one true love

I grab a rose that is number one
To show you that it is for fun

To have a girl that you can always have fun with
Not only someone to love but a friend also
To hang out and laugh
One is for fun

I grab a rose that is number two
To show you that it is so true

True love that is
True everything and much more
Nothing but true happiness
Two is for true

I grab a rose that is number three
To show you that it is for me

What you did to me
To show me I can smile
To make my heart beat again
Three is for me

I grab a rose that is number four
To show you that it is for more

Everyday the feelings don’t stop
More good things come every time we see each other
Everyday I love you more and more
Four is for more

I grab a rose that is number five
To show you it is for alive

I feel alive again
I do not spend my days being down
I spend them thinking of you
Five is for alive

I grab a rose that is number six
To show you that it is for fix

No matter what happens
We can fix it because our love
Is stronger then anger
Six is for fix

I grab a rose that is number seven
To show you that it is for heaven

You are like an angel from heaven
You make my world feel like heaven
You mean everything to me
Seven is for heaven

I grab a rose that is number eight
To show you that it is for date

The day I first laid eyes on you
The date I will not forget
The day my face smiled
Eight is for date

I grab a rose that is number nine
To show you that it is for shine

You shine in everyway
When you smile my day is happy
When you hold me I am at ease
Nine is for shine

I grab a rose that is number ten
To show you that it is for when

Like I am happy WHEN I hold you
I am happy WHEN I miss you
When I miss you I can’t wait WHEN I see you next
Ten is for when

I grab a rose that is number eleven
To show you that it is for seven

Seven days a week
I will work for it till the future comes
When I can see you every one of these days
Eleven is for seven

I grab a rose that is number twelve
To show you that it is for…you know what?

There is so much that can be told
But only so much this poem can hold
Many thoughts from my brain above About the girl I truly love

My mind goes through a lot
Two many unhinged objects
Shoved into a pocket-sized area
A curled web of thoughts
Tied around my already infirm brain

It seems the only way to turn it off
Is to close the broad shutters
The vision that shows reality
The two windows that hold the truth
Holding the pupils of perception

My ever so jaded shoulder
A stiff frigid table
Becomes a deep resting place
For the intense memories
Created in my fragile head

I then enter my own place
My candy coated world
One that causes my mouth to feel
To raise my lips just enough
To see a merry grin

One that causes my eyes to tear
Pools of crystal glee
A fountain of youth
Filling up the steel ducts
Of my giggling inner child

I have my dream
That seems so abundant and real
I spread my wings that tingle
Each made from every sparkling piece
Left in my delicate body

Then I fly so far and high
Away from my big bully called trouble
All I can do is wave a tiny good-bye
As the icy wind crystallizes through my hair
Chilling my skin just enough to feel a tickle

Until I wake up
To see reality’s evil eyes glaring at me
Trying to sink into my soul
Scorching through my beating heart
Then take my smiles away

But I realize it isn’t all that bad
For I still have love
And one powerful heart
Turning my will to unyielding stone
Making me invincible

I know who I am
I know what I want
I know I am strong
And I know I have enough direction
To be and do what I want

The beauty

Something one tries not to see in them self

You have it all, and I know
For I cannot tell a lie
But I have no physical proof
Just the words in my mind

Beautiful is not a word for you
You should be your own word
A new form to explain things
That is too amazing to call


To have tingles jump around my body
Every time you smile at me
To look into your eyes and evaporate
All that is bad in my head

I have to keep staring
Almost like it would be a crime
To look away from such a sight
And miss a second I could of seen your face

To look at something so great
And be forced to smile
You just know that what you are seeing
Is more then beauty itself

You are yourself
You look like yourself
That is what makes you
More than beautiful

So listen to my words
For that is the only way I can prove
That you
Are the most amazing thing I have ever seen.