pastelflowr: Poems

Apr 2019 · 130

headache

pastelflowr Apr 2019

headache

i thought i know what i'm doing
striving for the right things
but keep approaching the bad ones

how easy life would it be
if we can know
if we can feel

but
maybe that's the harsh truth
there are no right or wrong

just who and what
how and when

Mar 2018 · 258

fragile flower

pastelflowr Mar 2018

fragile flower

the petals begin to fall
one by one
leaving it naked, and alone
at the brink of a foreign cascade
in this coldness of spring

how funny does this sound?
spring is meant for it to bloom
yet, it's dying
for each second it breathes

becoming so helpless
yet, standing so strong
holding tight onto the ground

hang in there love, i got you

May 2016 · 266

Death wish

pastelflowr May 2016

Death wish

I have reached
The point in my life
Where death
Is the only option
I have

May 2016 · 298

15w

pastelflowr May 2016

15w

When love has become just a word
A game is what we are playing

Right?

Sudden thought

Nov 2015 · 371

Who Don't Get Who?

pastelflowr Nov 2015

Who Don't Get Who?

It's funny how I fall in love with you
Looking back at you right now
You ain't the same anymore

Maybe they're right
People do change

You keep saying
"I'm still me"
But that is a lie

Heart's getting torn from your mistakes
Sorry was never been said
Ego?

We keep fighting
And you're blaming me

"You don't get me!"
What the hell are you talking about?
Is it me or you?

I've done everything I could
But you don't give a **** about it

Now, tell me
*Who don't get who?

- Who Don't Get Who? -

Oct 2015 · 989

REBIRTH

pastelflowr Oct 2015

REBIRTH

The pills didn't work
Useless anesthetic
To this raging storm inside me

Each and everyday passes by
I fake a smile to the world

No one ever knows
Underneath my smile
Is my broken heart

I had reached a breaking point
The crystals streamed down my cheeks
I screamed, I shouted, I yelled

"SOMEONE ! PLEASE !"
"HELP ME ! HELP ME !"
"I'M DYING.."
"I'M DYING INSIDE..."

"PLEASE..SAVE ME.."

I can hear them in a whisper
Yet they can't hear me screaming

Tick tock goes the clock
Waiting in the amber of darkness
Embraced only by the lonely night's breeze
Facing my daunting life's misery

"FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT!"

A voice kept playing in my head
Repeating the same words
Over and over and over

As I see
A light at the end of the tunnel
A ray of hope

For in this very moment
I only have me
Only me

I have to fight
No! I must fight

This is my life, my match, my war
If there is only one winner
It will be me!

This game of mine
I am going to blow it up

As only I and I alone
Can paint a future that I truly deserve

Never give up in life..
Try to fight the negative vibes around us..
And shine.. ;)

*this poem related to my poem 'Depression'

#spreadthelove

Aug 2015 · 513

I Wonder

pastelflowr Aug 2015

I Wonder

If I shade a tear
Where will it flows?

If I cut my wrist
Where will the blood spurt?

If I die someday
Where will my soul go?

I wonder
Where will they be?

And till now
I still wondering

Jan 2015 · 597

You'll be sorry

pastelflowr Jan 2015

You'll be sorry

You unlocked the door
With the key
You called love?

You entered my heart
And enlightened it
With your lies

You drew me in
Into your world
To gain my love
To gain my trust

I gave you my heart
With trust
No doubt

But

You slowly
Squeeze it
Break it
Smash it to the wall

Now
You leave it wounded
Full of scars

"You'll be sorry"

**"I know you will"

Dec 2014 · 1.1k

Depression

pastelflowr Dec 2014

Depression

The pills doesn't work
I took it over and over
But still
It doesn't work

Each and everyday passes by
I fake a smile to the world

No one knows
Underneath my smile
Is my broken heart

But
I had reached a breaking point
The crystals streamed down my cheeks

I can't stand it anymore

"SOMEONE !"
"PLEASE !"
"HELP ME ! HELP ME !"

"I'M DYING.."
**"I'M DYING INSIDE..."

Depression took over..

Jun 2014 · 1.3k

Bully

pastelflowr Jun 2014

Bully

You think you're tough enough?
To leave bruises on the others' body
To make a scar on the others' face

You think you're perfect?
To insult the others
Saying their existence is a ******* jokes

Do you proud of it?
Does it worth?

What did you gained?
Satisfaction?
Victory?

From your deepest heart
Don't you feel sorry for them?
They're physically and mentally
Broken by you

And you
Laughing at them
Saying they deserve this?

Is there
No humanity
Live inside you?

People like you guys
Don't deserve to be called human
Neither be called animal
'Cause animal isn't as devil as you

Just remember
This world is round
What goes around
Comes around

So, for the bullies
Please stop
'Cause it's hurt be the victims

#no #to #say #bully

Jun 2014 · 441

P.S. I Love You

pastelflowr Jun 2014

P.S. I Love You

I hate
The way you look at me
'Cause it makes me smile all day long

I hate
The way you smile
'Cause it makes my heartbeat goes wild

I hate
The way you talk
'Cause it makes me stare at you all day long

I hate
The way you treat me
'Cause it makes me couldn't stop thinking about you

I hate you
'Cause you make me fall in love with you
Again and again

P.S.
I love you

May 2014 · 721

Confession

pastelflowr May 2014

Confession

At the age of 14
We first met

In the same class
Is this fate?

"Hi!"

My first greeting
My heart kept telling me
To be friend with you

'Friend'
That what was I thought
Till I fall in love with you

The more I know you
The more I wanted to be
More than friend

Whenever you greet me
Whenever you talk to me
My heart fluttered
I feel happy
I feel at ease

Three years passed
Now here we are
In the last year of school

Not long time ago
You will greet me first
You will gave smile to me first

But it seems things do change
You no more greet me
You no more talk to me
Not even give a smile

Why?
Tell me why?
There must be a reason

What wrong have I made?
Did something happen?

Tell me
Don't just ignore me
Without a reason

Now
You seems miles away
We no longer seem friend
We seem like stranger I could say?

My feelings toward you
What should I do with it?
Erase it away after three years?
I tried but I just can't

I really wanted to confess
I really do
But
I can't
I'm afraid
I'm afraid of the answer you'll give

I miss the old you..:'(

May 2014 · 491

10w

pastelflowr May 2014

10w

I am still looking up
Still looking up
For you

May 2014 · 483

Lies

pastelflowr May 2014

Lies

When our eyes
Met their eyes
The two pool full of lies

We're blind
Blind with their tricks
Blind with their lies

'Cause
We chose to trust them

With all our heart
We trust them

But
They chose to lie

Lies?
Is that the only way?
The only way you can choose?

Now
I know why
Why people always say

"Be careful to who you trust"
**"'Cause the devil once an angel"

Lie, lies and lies..
Too much lies in this world..

May 2014 · 789

Fight?

pastelflowr May 2014

Fight?

I was once a girl
Who will fight
For you

Day by day
Night by night
My mind
Can't stop thinking about you
My heart
Can't stop beating every time when I see you

I thought
You were the one
I thought
You were the one who worth to fight

That was what I thought
But
I was wrong

'Cause it seems
You just give me hope

Hope?
Just hope
But it'll never be love

And now
I'm no longer who I used to be

And now
I'm no longer a girl

Who will fight for
You or any other man

I'll not fight
I'll never fight
Till he make me believe

"He's the one"

'Cause
I'm just tired
I'm just afraid
Of been fooled
*twice

Special credits to Ashley Spence..
I just got inspiration from her comment to write this one yesterday..
This poem is the opposite of my other poem 'Woman'..
:)))

#love #hurt

May 2014 · 983

Love

pastelflowr May 2014

Love

People keep asking me

"Why do you love him?"
"What so great about him?"

And
They always give harsh criticisms

  "He's too old."
"He's too young."
                                              "He's too short."
                                     "He's too tall.".
                                                                                       "He's too fat."
                                                                                                  "He's too thin."

And
I keep saying

"Do you need a reason to love someone?"

'Cause
To me
When it comes to love
The age, the height, the weight
Is just a number

:)))

#love #the #spread

May 2014 · 1.3k

Woman

pastelflowr May 2014

Woman

Woman
You've something
That the man doesn't

"What is it?"

You've a strong heart
A tough one

"How do you know?"

You can see it clearly
By looking at yourself

"Me?"

Yes, you
Even when you're sad
You never show you gloominess
Even when you're facing problems
You never forget to give a smile

"But, now I can't smile."

Why?

"He dumped me."
"He says 'we're not meant for each other.' "

Don't be sad
My little one

"I guess I just not perfect for him."

No
No, my little one

The one who has problem is him
Not you
You may not be perfect
But he's the one who never noticed the beauty behind it

He leaves you
He lost the precious things, you

Don't cry! Don't be sad!
You're not yet exposed to the real world
And when you do
You'll meet many types of person

And one of them
Will be a man
A man who will give you what you deserve

"Deserve? What I deserve?"

Respect
Love

'Cause you are not a toy to play with
You heart is precious
It's fragile

When come the time you meet that man
Hold him tight
Don't let he go
Fight for him
'Cause it's worth it
'Cause he's the one

Woman
Make sure you fall in love with a guy who worth to fight for
:)))

#love #the #spread

May 2014 · 477

Hatred

pastelflowr May 2014

Hatred

You don't like me?
You hate me?
It's okay
It's doesn't bother me

Everyday
Every single minute
You talk about me
You bad mouthed about me
Telling everyone
How disgrace I am
How I don't deserve to be alive

You slowly stabbed me
With your words
Like a sword
Rupturing all part of my body
Tearing every single cell in it

Are you happy now?
Are you satisfied?
Does it worth?
Are you done talking about me?

Now, it's my turn
Let me talk
Let me say
All the words
All the things
That I've been holding these days

Let me talk
Let me say
All the words
All the things
What I think of you

"I feel pity of you."

'Cause
The hatred
Fill the emptiness of your heart
The bloods flow into every part of your body
Full of hatred

"I'm grateful to you."

You cared about my life
Every part of it without any miss
You noticed all mistakes that I made
Even the tiniest one
That cannot be seen with naked eyes

"Thank you."

You opened my eyes wide
Make me realise
Who's the real friends
And
Who's the fake one

You let me know
Who's my friends
Who's my foe

But
Not every devil is a devil from the start

So now,
Tell me
Tell me why
Why you're doing this?

Our life is short..
We don't have times for hating anyone..
Spares your times for the precious one..
:)))

#the #loves #spread

May 2014 · 485

Truly One

pastelflowr May 2014

Truly One

There are two types of person in this world
A good one
And
A bad one

Those who are good
May not forever good

Those who are bad
May not forever bad

But
Human! Human!
Always dig into others past
Only noticed our mistakes
Only remember the bad sides

But
They never noticed once
The changes we made
They never remember once
The kindness we gave

But
Don't forget
There'll be a person
Who'll accept who we are
Who'll forget the past
And be with us in the present

And when comes the time you meet them
Hold them tight
Don't ever let them go

'Cause
They're the truly one

Nowadays
It's hard to find the true friends..
:\

#the #loves #spread

May 2014 · 714

Trust

pastelflowr May 2014

Trust

What you think is true
May not be true

What you think is lie
May not be lie

Make a wise decisions
Whether to trust or to doubt

'Cause
A heart will be broken
Whether it's yours
Or others'

Trust or Doubt?
A hard thing in life
:)))

#love #the #spread

May 2014 · 1.8k

Peace, No War!

pastelflowr May 2014

Peace, No War!

Peace?
Everyone deserves peace

War?
No one deserves war

But
Why is it happening?
Why is it occur?

Is it because of
Politics?
Or
It's because of
Your selfishness?
Your greediness?

Open your eyes wide
Look around you!
Listen!

"Ahh! Ahh!"

The scream of poor women

"Mom! Dad!"

The sound of innocent children crying
Begging for their parents back

"Forgive us!"

The begging of forgiveness
Of the old folks
When it's not even their fault!

Even the creatures of the earth
Gone
Nowhere to be seen

All of them
Dead! Destroyed!
Just because of your stupid war!

And
You're saying

"They're terrorists!"

How dare you?!
How could you?

Are their life that priceless?
Are their life that meaningless to you?

Humanity
Where does it go?
Where could it be?

Justice
Where is it?
Where is the justice you promise to give?

They don't deserve this
They don't deserve war
They deserve peace

'Cause
They're humans

They're humans
Like us

:'(

What will you do if they're your family?
Let's give our support and pray for the victims of the war!!
And please don't treat others differently just because of their religion..
We're one, right??:)))
Peace No War!

#love #the #spread

May 2014 · 946

Smile

pastelflowr May 2014

Smile

Smile
Even when you're sad

Smile
Even when you're hurt

Smile
Even when you're heartbroken

Smile
Even when you've the worst day

Smile
Even when you're facing problems

Smile
Even when you're in the midst of hardship

Smile
'Cause you look beautiful that way

:)

Don't forget to smile!:)))

May 2014 · 1.5k

The Time Has Come

pastelflowr May 2014

The Time Has Come

"It's  time"
                                       TICK  TOCK
                                                                          TICK  TOCK

                                                  “The death has come!”

                                        TICK  TOCK
                                                                         TICK  TOCK

                                                      “You  can't hide!”
                                                        “You can’t run!”

                                        TICK  TOCK
                                                                          TICK  TOCK

                                                                  "But"
                                                        "Save your life!”
                                                          “Go! Run!”
                                                     “Don’t look behind!”

                                       “HUH!  HUH!”
                                                                        “HUH! HUH!”

                                                          “Time’s up”

“Oh God,”
                                                                                               “It’s just a dream.”

#nightmares

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