No matter how much I try to paint my life
And decorate my own soul
At the end of the day
I always, always,
Feel grey and cold.

Take me back to my younger days
Where I danced and sang for hours everyday
Not having a care in the world except “does he know my name?”
Maybe one day my name will be in lights and I’ll rise to
               FAME
      Short and skinny
         Blonde hair blue eyes
Is all they saw, guess their just being “one of the guys”
If I could go back I would just be me
Following my heart dancing to reach my
               DREAMS

never been there
West Virginia
or anywhere like your heart

covered bridges
ancient ridges
all those lonely miles

between the coasts
I wonder what every mile
every smile is like

a coal miner's daughter
miles tick
the odometer

as I traverse
states
many ladies addresses

all forgotten as
I go now with only
one destination

before you go and do something dumb
I know how it is just to feel numb.
take a moment to let me tell you people care
because maybe you want to share but you don't dare.
don't be afraid to tell somebody you need help
because no matter how small the yelp
they will be there to listen to you
so maybe this is your cue.
this world is better with you in it so don't quit
Please stop hiding that pit
speak out and seek attention
let's start the process of ascension
I know that you feel alone all by yourself
like you've been placed on a dusty shelf
cut off from a society that doesn't love you
but I'm telling you that isn't true.
just give a call to that hot line
let it be a light in the dark that shines
because they will answer and listen
the tears will fall and glisten
because you'll know that they care
you can let go of the tremendous weight you bare.
people love you and they always will
so before you take that pill
before that Blade touches you again
before you step off the end
put down that gun
and just call them so you live to see the morning sun
I love all of you with all of me
I just hope I reach you in time for you to see.
I beg and plead
before you start to bleed
just call them and talk
they want to help you they really do.
don't be afraid to take that first step
don't be like me and never speak out.

-Caleb J. Collins

Will you find me
If am lost,
In this torn world
At any cost?

"Hold my hand
In this crowd",
If I slipped
Will you doubt?

You said am special
But I lack love
A stone hearted
...a silent dove

I lost my will to live
Yet you drag me along
Like a lively puppet
...singing a crap song

You wipe away my tears
And hug me tight
You chase away my fears
And make me feel right

What shall I call you?
A healing messiah
My lost lover
Hitting on my desire

I can't keep up with this silence
Why don't you talk?
I promise to be good
Can we stop this walk?

A look on your face
Filled with care and calm
You touch my face
Then close me in your arms

A whisper in my ears
"You are mine, my love"
"I searched for years"
"My lost angel from above"

Drowned within his soul
My beating heart slowed
I no longer feel cold
As his love willingly flowed...


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