When I was young, I was afraid of many things
There was darkness
But also what came out of darkness
There was spiders and bats because, well, because.
After a little while I lost some old fears,
Picked up new ones
Like, what I'd she dosent like me?
Am I going to get that grade?
Today I realized the pointlessness of those fears
As I witnessed many face my truest fear
I quickly cast my fears aside
As only one matters now
I am not afraid to die,
But I am afraid of outliving those I love
I fear going to my brothers funeral
Seeing him one last time
I fear my mother's and Father's
I love them both so dearly
I fear loosing the one I love
Seeing the face awake next to mine no more
I fear outliving the kids I'll someday have
As no father should have to watch their child die
I fear the loss of my friends
I would be nothing without
To say it would brake me would not be enough
I would shatter and do so twice
I sat in a funeral today
Tears along with the rest
Realizing how precious
Each. Person. Is.
I praised God for the life I have
I thanked Him for my health
But I didn't pray for my protection
I pray for those I love
So no, I do not fear the dark
I fear kneeling next to the casket
Gazing at the loved one lost
And seeing their smile no more
Apr 17, 2016
Apr 17, 2016 at 10:42 PM UTC
When I was young, I was afraid of many things
There was darkness
But also what came out of darkness
There was spiders and bats because, well, because.
After a little while I lost some old fears,
Picked up new ones
Like, what I'd she dosent like me?
Am I going to get that grade?
Today I realized the pointlessness of those fears
As I witnessed many face my truest fear
I quickly cast my fears aside
As only one matters now
I am not afraid to die,
But I am afraid of outliving those I love
I fear going to my brothers funeral
Seeing him one last time
I fear my mother's and Father's
I love them both so dearly
I fear loosing the one I love
Seeing the face awake next to mine no more
I fear outliving the kids I'll someday have
As no father should have to watch their child die
I fear the loss of my friends
I would be nothing without
To say it would brake me would not be enough
I would shatter and do so twice
I sat in a funeral today
Tears along with the rest
Realizing how precious
Each. Person. Is.
I praised God for the life I have
I thanked Him for my health
But I didn't pray for my protection
I pray for those I love
So no, I do not fear the dark
I fear kneeling next to the casket
Gazing at the loved one lost
And seeing their smile no more
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