It was a good night
With cold wind
Until I wrapped my car around a telephone pole
I was in and out at first
upside down
Saftey glass
Refelected on the moonlit road
As I wait in silence
Each breath is ragged beneath my shattered ribs
The rub of the seatbelt on my my clavicle
Snapped like a broken branch
I fight to keep my eyes open
I wake up to a man kneeling in the puddle of diamond windshield pieces
Yelling into a cell phone, and then talking to me calmly
I don't remeber my name
No I don't know what day it is
I'm gonna die
I wake up in the ambulance
The feeling of my lungs pumping themselves
The feeling of blood pooling beneath my hands
The sound of paramedics yelling at each other
Then talking quietly to me
No I don't know where I am
No I don't know how many fingers you are holding up
A neck brace keeps me from looking around
But I can see so clear in my mind
That day at the beach
When we skipped school
The night I snuck to your house
When your mom was out
The time I got bit by a dog
A hot afternoon in April
I remeber pine needles falling from the trees
As you kneel in the clearing
Talking about heaven
The emergency room doors slid open
On their own
Nurses yell back and forth
And speak quietly to me
As they cut away the clothes from my blackened skin
As the needle finds my vein
And I notice the old flamiliar sting
Among so much anguish
I dont smell the sterile smell of the hospital
Or the smell of my own scorched skin
I smell the sea
The sand on your skin
The taste of salt
The after swim kiss
I can't hear the beep of my blood pressure as it begins to rise
Or the yell of the nurse for a crash cart
I heard you sing
As we drove down the road
The moon was orange
And the sky was red
I could have turned down the radio
Just to listen
They yelled around me
It all fell on deaf ears
The last thing I ever told you was
"I never loved you and I never will
Mar 28, 2012
Mar 28, 2012 at 1:49 PM UTC
It was a good night
With cold wind
Until I wrapped my car around a telephone pole
I was in and out at first
upside down
Saftey glass
Refelected on the moonlit road
As I wait in silence
Each breath is ragged beneath my shattered ribs
The rub of the seatbelt on my my clavicle
Snapped like a broken branch
I fight to keep my eyes open
I wake up to a man kneeling in the puddle of diamond windshield pieces
Yelling into a cell phone, and then talking to me calmly
I don't remeber my name
No I don't know what day it is
I'm gonna die
I wake up in the ambulance
The feeling of my lungs pumping themselves
The feeling of blood pooling beneath my hands
The sound of paramedics yelling at each other
Then talking quietly to me
No I don't know where I am
No I don't know how many fingers you are holding up
A neck brace keeps me from looking around
But I can see so clear in my mind
That day at the beach
When we skipped school
The night I snuck to your house
When your mom was out
The time I got bit by a dog
A hot afternoon in April
I remeber pine needles falling from the trees
As you kneel in the clearing
Talking about heaven
The emergency room doors slid open
On their own
Nurses yell back and forth
And speak quietly to me
As they cut away the clothes from my blackened skin
As the needle finds my vein
And I notice the old flamiliar sting
Among so much anguish
I dont smell the sterile smell of the hospital
Or the smell of my own scorched skin
I smell the sea
The sand on your skin
The taste of salt
The after swim kiss
I can't hear the beep of my blood pressure as it begins to rise
Or the yell of the nurse for a crash cart
I heard you sing
As we drove down the road
The moon was orange
And the sky was red
I could have turned down the radio
Just to listen
They yelled around me
It all fell on deaf ears
The last thing I ever told you was
"I never loved you and I never will
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