Just beneath the surface,
Waiting all the time..
Nerves and bottled problems,
Playing on the Line.
One step across the boundary,
It all just falls away.
No resolute, confidence,
No 'I'm OK' charade.
It spreads across my body,
Prickles under my skin..
It's inside, in my mind,
This demon.. I can't win.
My breathing becomes shallow,
I yearn to stop the tears.
It plays with every weakness,
It taunts, it glares, it leers.
This monster that's inside me,
Loves to come and play.
Beating me completely,
promising to stay.
So desperate for silence,
I try to ignore my curse..
My solitude will never last,
Each time it just gets worse.
I can't stand it any longer.
These nerves, this fear..
No one to help,
No one to hear.
I've got to get out of here..
Can you hear me?
...I'm drowning in my mind..