"ugh"
the tone in our talking to them.
sort of inexplicable,
it feels completely unavoidable.
first person i ever wished was a friend
but realized would never be anything other
than something to rebel against.
moms i love yous
your pain always a reminder that i have to be strong enough
to keep myself alive,
maybe that's why the resentment towards you,
when in my lowests i wanted to give up on all
you forced me to continue existing.
i still feel like a child or a teenager around you.
i have to battle the instincts to be mean to you,
as if you deserved it.
i break my own heart when i break yours,
but i can't help it.
Feb 27, 2021
Feb 27, 2021 at 1:39 PM UTC
"ugh"
the tone in our talking to them.
sort of inexplicable,
it feels completely unavoidable.
first person i ever wished was a friend
but realized would never be anything other
than something to rebel against.
moms i love yous
your pain always a reminder that i have to be strong enough
to keep myself alive,
maybe that's why the resentment towards you,
when in my lowests i wanted to give up on all
you forced me to continue existing.
i still feel like a child or a teenager around you.
i have to battle the instincts to be mean to you,
as if you deserved it.
i break my own heart when i break yours,
but i can't help it.
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