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We are a little ****** up inside The parts of ourselves we try to hide Some of us dwell in trenches deep Just like those up hills so steep Looking at the life I know Stars above Ground below Everything we do not share weighs us down In the stress we'll eventually drown Is knowledge we are missing too hard to reach? Can be the one to show me how and teach More bad habits every day But you can take them away Is more serotonin what I need? Expensive to sense/cents to feed Rather fix hormones in my brain Than leave be and go insane A long way to go Climb off my knees Halfway there start to wheeze Missed shot I'm on the bench Opportunity failed Fists clenched Throw confidence against wall Kindness shown to others Not self at all And around in circles I run Like clock hands thoughts are never done Confetti exploding Colorful shower Pieces of heart shredded by the hour No bravery No guts No ***** No spine Days will never again be mine No hurry to grow older Faint embers to smolder Story etched Layers of stone Exhausted to skin and bone Walking motion Too worn out to sprint Precious time now viewed with tint Inhumane way of wearing death out Lies before infinite route Mirror whispers "You are not good enough" Existing breath hated and rough Body in conflict with the voice in my head Dangling from a solitary thread The day hazy because I am confused Hop from mistake to mistake unexcused Revealing that despair is long Unchanging as I mosey along My heart warming Trying change And thawing as flaws disarrange Can think I'll get better I never will Spending time savoring that thrill Laughing days that passed by in a rush Crying Sharing stories we gush We are only distracting from the pain Is a point ever reached Where you slip down the drain? A need to fix Need to heal No way of stopping the bad **** I feel Move feet but I'm stuck in place ****** up all I can't erase
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Dec 13, 2020
Dec 13, 2020 at 9:19 AM UTC
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We are a little ****** up inside The parts of ourselves we try to hide Some of us dwell in trenches deep Just like those up hills so steep Looking at the life I know Stars above Ground below Everything we do not share weighs us down In the stress we'll eventually drown Is knowledge we are missing too hard to reach? Can be the one to show me how and teach More bad habits every day But you can take them away Is more serotonin what I need? Expensive to sense/cents to feed Rather fix hormones in my brain Than leave be and go insane A long way to go Climb off my knees Halfway there start to wheeze Missed shot I'm on the bench Opportunity failed Fists clenched Throw confidence against wall Kindness shown to others Not self at all And around in circles I run Like clock hands thoughts are never done Confetti exploding Colorful shower Pieces of heart shredded by the hour No bravery No guts No ***** No spine Days will never again be mine No hurry to grow older Faint embers to smolder Story etched Layers of stone Exhausted to skin and bone Walking motion Too worn out to sprint Precious time now viewed with tint Inhumane way of wearing death out Lies before infinite route Mirror whispers "You are not good enough" Existing breath hated and rough Body in conflict with the voice in my head Dangling from a solitary thread The day hazy because I am confused Hop from mistake to mistake unexcused Revealing that despair is long Unchanging as I mosey along My heart warming Trying change And thawing as flaws disarrange Can think I'll get better I never will Spending time savoring that thrill Laughing days that passed by in a rush Crying Sharing stories we gush We are only distracting from the pain Is a point ever reached Where you slip down the drain? A need to fix Need to heal No way of stopping the bad **** I feel Move feet but I'm stuck in place ****** up all I can't erase
Its so hard to let go of the past
#up#inside#life#love#live#erase
AmandaKayBurke
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AmandaKayBurke
30/F/Alaska
Dec 13, 2020
Dec 13, 2020 at 9:19 AM UTC
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