the sun caught in my eyes
and
for a minute i was holding you -
holding your hand,
trembling inside
but still as stone outwardly;
safe,
rooted,
my heart gathered love
like eager hummingbirds
collect sap.
i wanted to tell you
then
how every time you leave
another piece of me goes
with you.
because the truth is
i am and
i’m not
jealous.
really,
it’s envy -
envy
of those who
get to see your smile
every morning
while i dream of a day
when it’s the smile
i wake up to.
in my mind
i’ve already said
those three words but
now
i hold them close
to the heart that beats
for the love of you
the heart you carry
next to yours.
Dec 3, 2019
Dec 3, 2019 at 2:28 PM UTC
the sun caught in my eyes
and
for a minute i was holding you -
holding your hand,
trembling inside
but still as stone outwardly;
safe,
rooted,
my heart gathered love
like eager hummingbirds
collect sap.
i wanted to tell you
then
how every time you leave
another piece of me goes
with you.
because the truth is
i am and
i’m not
jealous.
really,
it’s envy -
envy
of those who
get to see your smile
every morning
while i dream of a day
when it’s the smile
i wake up to.
in my mind
i’ve already said
those three words but
now
i hold them close
to the heart that beats
for the love of you
the heart you carry
next to yours.