Cant control this feeling
This fear of drifting away
A feeling i cannot help
But endure every single day
Sleep, always restless
Fake smiles, for you to think I'm ok
A shield, a mask, a boulder
To hide the pain away
I cant seem to close my eyes
Despite the heavy weight
Though i weigh them down, they Never shut
Sleep, they've begun to hate
The feeling of pain is horrible
Especially when no one can see
That i have lost a part of myself
I have lost the elated side of me
no longer am i fond of hugs
No longer am i willing to wait
For someone to find and help me
I believe it's much too late
I cant seem to close my eyes
Too many nightmares, chasing me
No dreams with rainbows and smiles
Only fear to an unimaginable degree
No longer do i believe in love or trust
I can no longer keep my feelings at bay
Can no longer act as well as i used to
I am too tired to shove my feelings away
I am no longer able to breathe right
I am no longer able to define life the right way
I am surrounded by people i no longer love
People to whom i dont know what to say
I cant seem to close my eyes
What else is there to say
Im a girl with chronic insomnia
And the fear doesn't seem to be going away
I have lost the ability to love
Because of people who have turned their backs
And because of that, thanks to them
Ive become an insomniac
Jun 13, 2018
Jun 13, 2018 at 5:20 AM UTC
Cant control this feeling
This fear of drifting away
A feeling i cannot help
But endure every single day
Sleep, always restless
Fake smiles, for you to think I'm ok
A shield, a mask, a boulder
To hide the pain away
I cant seem to close my eyes
Despite the heavy weight
Though i weigh them down, they Never shut
Sleep, they've begun to hate
The feeling of pain is horrible
Especially when no one can see
That i have lost a part of myself
I have lost the elated side of me
no longer am i fond of hugs
No longer am i willing to wait
For someone to find and help me
I believe it's much too late
I cant seem to close my eyes
Too many nightmares, chasing me
No dreams with rainbows and smiles
Only fear to an unimaginable degree
No longer do i believe in love or trust
I can no longer keep my feelings at bay
Can no longer act as well as i used to
I am too tired to shove my feelings away
I am no longer able to breathe right
I am no longer able to define life the right way
I am surrounded by people i no longer love
People to whom i dont know what to say
I cant seem to close my eyes
What else is there to say
Im a girl with chronic insomnia
And the fear doesn't seem to be going away
I have lost the ability to love
Because of people who have turned their backs
And because of that, thanks to them
Ive become an insomniac