1,354 days
and nothing healed
it just went quiet
the world kept moving
like it didn’t steal you
like you were nothing
they said you looked peaceful
you weren’t
you were taken
i graduated
i did it
and you weren’t there
all that noise
all those people
and the only voice i needed
was gone
what’s the point of any of this
if you don’t see it?
i tried to reach higher
another sky
closer to you
i failed
and it crushed me
because there’s no you
to tell me i’m still enough
they say it gets easier
they’re lying
it just gets heavier
quieter
harder to explain
they say you’re a star now
i hate that
i hate looking up
and knowing i’ll never reach you
1,354 days
and i still don’t know
how to live in a world
that took my father
and gave me nothing back
Apr 7
Apr 7, 2026 at 5:47 PM UTC
1,354 days
and nothing healed
it just went quiet
the world kept moving
like it didn’t steal you
like you were nothing
they said you looked peaceful
you weren’t
you were taken
i graduated
i did it
and you weren’t there
all that noise
all those people
and the only voice i needed
was gone
what’s the point of any of this
if you don’t see it?
i tried to reach higher
another sky
closer to you
i failed
and it crushed me
because there’s no you
to tell me i’m still enough
they say it gets easier
they’re lying
it just gets heavier
quieter
harder to explain
they say you’re a star now
i hate that
i hate looking up
and knowing i’ll never reach you
1,354 days
and i still don’t know
how to live in a world
that took my father
and gave me nothing back
i finallly changed my artist name to honour the memory of my dad and i miss hime so much