Nostalgia visits again
I press play
inconceivable love and a sparkling mind
My heart rips open
Your new girl looks a bit like me
I saw your mum commented on her picture
Is that all life is now? Staring at digital faces and letters not generated by hand
How is it after all these years you still sit inside of me
Enough time has passed for me to actually be happy for you
And I began to speak of you sometimes
Of that last conversation we had
I knew if I didn't keep trying
You'd never speak to me again
But I acted like you never existed. Never told anyone of that time
Being locked up, quarantined, and two deaths.
I think I acted pretty sane
But there's something about those three months
They just linger there
Expansive
Like I was on the verge of achieving all my dreams
And you were there
An endless possibility
That I attached myself to
Before my entire life fell apart
Holding a mother from hitting the floor when saying goodbye
Making promises I knew I couldn't keep
Leaving them behind to run towards the clouds
But nothing kept me safe
And the darkness had me
It curled up my spine in the dead of night
Whispered things like
Everyone you know will die now
I held onto you like a safety vest
But it wasn't water that was drowning me
Jan 16
Jan 16, 2026 at 4:46 AM UTC
Nostalgia visits again
I press play
inconceivable love and a sparkling mind
My heart rips open
Your new girl looks a bit like me
I saw your mum commented on her picture
Is that all life is now? Staring at digital faces and letters not generated by hand
How is it after all these years you still sit inside of me
Enough time has passed for me to actually be happy for you
And I began to speak of you sometimes
Of that last conversation we had
I knew if I didn't keep trying
You'd never speak to me again
But I acted like you never existed. Never told anyone of that time
Being locked up, quarantined, and two deaths.
I think I acted pretty sane
But there's something about those three months
They just linger there
Expansive
Like I was on the verge of achieving all my dreams
And you were there
An endless possibility
That I attached myself to
Before my entire life fell apart
Holding a mother from hitting the floor when saying goodbye
Making promises I knew I couldn't keep
Leaving them behind to run towards the clouds
But nothing kept me safe
And the darkness had me
It curled up my spine in the dead of night
Whispered things like
Everyone you know will die now
I held onto you like a safety vest
But it wasn't water that was drowning me
