11/29/2017
"*
I
...Bitter rain by the mouthful...
II
More hands on the terrible rough...
The whole thing turns
On earth, throwing off a dark
Flood of four ways
Of being here, blind and bending...
A final form
And color at last comes out
Of you- alone- putting it all
Together like nothing
Here like almighty
III
Glory.*""
James Dickey
October is here and
you are not dead yet.
the room is always hot-
every room is always hot.
at least to me,
a month later
a fever takes my brain in its hands
my body trying to fight something
this is a delayed reaction to
your blistering lies to me as the
sun set and cast
ochre glisters
that only autumn can create.
i fear the winter
and its pallidness
and i fear the delaware river
looking at it too long
and perhaps discovering the truth
whatever that may be.
it did not happen
this did not happen.
October
and you are
not dead yet.
November
and neither am
i.
when you said you
were proud of me
my confusion grew.
proud of eternally ******* up
and looking at you
when you needed me to speak?
the words I have used today
have not done this or you
justice.
no, not at all.
days stretch on
and nothing happens.
time is the biggest thief
and the biggest trick
known to humanity.
one day the light was shining on us
the same shade of ocher crawling in through slats.
i stood up and closed the blinds.
i would always ask you to guess
guess what?
only to say something quite obvious.
guess what
october is gone
and you are dead.
Nov 29, 2017
Nov 29, 2017 at 4:23 PM UTC
11/29/2017
"*
I
...Bitter rain by the mouthful...
II
More hands on the terrible rough...
The whole thing turns
On earth, throwing off a dark
Flood of four ways
Of being here, blind and bending...
A final form
And color at last comes out
Of you- alone- putting it all
Together like nothing
Here like almighty
III
Glory.*""
James Dickey
October is here and
you are not dead yet.
the room is always hot-
every room is always hot.
at least to me,
a month later
a fever takes my brain in its hands
my body trying to fight something
this is a delayed reaction to
your blistering lies to me as the
sun set and cast
ochre glisters
that only autumn can create.
i fear the winter
and its pallidness
and i fear the delaware river
looking at it too long
and perhaps discovering the truth
whatever that may be.
it did not happen
this did not happen.
October
and you are
not dead yet.
November
and neither am
i.
when you said you
were proud of me
my confusion grew.
proud of eternally ******* up
and looking at you
when you needed me to speak?
the words I have used today
have not done this or you
justice.
no, not at all.
days stretch on
and nothing happens.
time is the biggest thief
and the biggest trick
known to humanity.
one day the light was shining on us
the same shade of ocher crawling in through slats.
i stood up and closed the blinds.
i would always ask you to guess
guess what?
only to say something quite obvious.
guess what
october is gone
and you are dead.