the sounds of my frustration
are practically palpable
I can feel the hate
I have for myself
my breathes short
my hands twitching
I seep anger
and weep shame
there is nowhere to turn
except inside
the same place I’m running from
the same thing that’s hunting me even now
I can’t write any more
I have become an external
I’m worried
I’m… scared
there I said it
I am scared
I am terrified
I am justified
I am fleeing from myself
and I know there’s no use
somebody,
please forgive me
I don’t deserve this
whatever I did,
it’s not equal to self-destruction
of the black hole
I created in
myself
Dec 19, 2010
Dec 19, 2010 at 9:09 AM UTC
the sounds of my frustration
are practically palpable
I can feel the hate
I have for myself
my breathes short
my hands twitching
I seep anger
and weep shame
there is nowhere to turn
except inside
the same place I’m running from
the same thing that’s hunting me even now
I can’t write any more
I have become an external
I’m worried
I’m… scared
there I said it
I am scared
I am terrified
I am justified
I am fleeing from myself
and I know there’s no use
somebody,
please forgive me
I don’t deserve this
whatever I did,
it’s not equal to self-destruction
of the black hole
I created in
myself
