Why ? God are you there ?

Soitgoes Poems

Sometimes I wonder in life where I went wrong ?! I followed the rules I played along. Through all the bull **** and things of that sort, I never complained I was a good sport. So why does it feel that I always get the short end of the stick ? Its like I'm given something and its taken back just as quick !? They say to be happy someone always has it worse, but this isn't a one day occurrence I was born with this curse. Always feeling alone with nobody by my side . I'd give up and call it quits if it weren't for my pride. On the outside it looks like sunshine like I have it all together. Smiling and nodding saying "its going to get better" . I'm starting to lose feeling in this thing they called my heart. ITs getting so numb, bruised, tattered, and falling apart. I ask you Dear God just why these feelings for me? Can't my heart just be happy, flowing and free ? Why do I always struggle with the things inside my head ? My Mind full of thoughts my heart emotionless and dead. Walking through life, emotionless and scared. I didn't know it would be like this, I wasn't prepared. My eyes are now empty no more tears left to cry. Just please answer my prayer God and please tell me why !?!?