I don't know what to think anymore
My brain says one thing and my heart says another
If they only could only join as one, wouldn't that be better?
I want to go but I also want to stay
I want to say no but that wouldn't be OK
I don't want to hurt but I also want to be felt
It feels like I am being pulled by a big tight belt
I think it's my conscience talking or could it only be me?
I don't want to sound selfish but I am very confused
Don't know what to do
My brain all bruised
I can't feel nor can I think
It's like I am on the brink
I hope I don't fall
Because of it all
If I only knew what to do
I wouldn't be here
Thinking and feeling of this dreadful
fear.
Jul 9, 2014
Jul 9, 2014 at 9:55 PM UTC
I don't know what to think anymore
My brain says one thing and my heart says another
If they only could only join as one, wouldn't that be better?
I want to go but I also want to stay
I want to say no but that wouldn't be OK
I don't want to hurt but I also want to be felt
It feels like I am being pulled by a big tight belt
I think it's my conscience talking or could it only be me?
I don't want to sound selfish but I am very confused
Don't know what to do
My brain all bruised
I can't feel nor can I think
It's like I am on the brink
I hope I don't fall
Because of it all
If I only knew what to do
I wouldn't be here
Thinking and feeling of this dreadful
fear.
Please note: This is one of my very first poems I have written, it isn't as good as you can see (actually read) but it did help me vent my thoughts out and that's - I believe - what actually matters.
