*I'm not heartless
Just using my heart less
Hoping art is an answer
Like cancer is catharsis
Right now, I'm coping
Picking up the broken pieces
From when this started
Ripping me open in little shreds
Closed again before I noticed
Once I lost feeling, I stopped reeling
There's no revealing memories
Now that you've gone
All dearly departed
Hoping something prestigious
Grows from this seedless garden
But it's like trying to capture air
From a fractured jar
To make an attempt
Of clearing my heart
Not to mention restart it
Seamless spent broken leaves
Hedonist and facetious facsimiles
While I soak in mass energies
To resuscitate dead memories
Just casually discuss the minor details
Of all my sad hapless dreams
Don't try to act or pretend to believe
If you lack a fractured tendency
You'll simply react
To your own hopeless epiphany
While laughing you'll remember me
Aside from the venom presented
Within my resentful history
It's the recurring action persistently
Building traction for another
And once again
Redacted epiphany
Prolifically trapped
In a perdition subliminally
I have personally granted permission
The eternal conditions of a prisoner
Taking backward steps so timidly
It's become tradition
So twisted and vivid...
All I see are projections
Protecting corrections
Rejecting reflections
Until the message infested
Keeps me second guessing
Or stressing and searching
For a holy blessing
It's a mess
I've run amok
There's no abstaining the jest
Honestly I do confess
The only promise I will keep
Is to remain taking the test
And lay the rest six feet beneath
But I'm always second best
The runner-up stumbling
Surreptitiously obsessed
With my mind's eye manifest
Delusional and mumbling
To compare with the rest
I'll use my heart less
And cease the thunder rumbling
If I could attest
It was my absolute best
That used to mean something
Jul 29, 2019
Jul 29, 2019 at 11:15 PM UTC
*I'm not heartless
Just using my heart less
Hoping art is an answer
Like cancer is catharsis
Right now, I'm coping
Picking up the broken pieces
From when this started
Ripping me open in little shreds
Closed again before I noticed
Once I lost feeling, I stopped reeling
There's no revealing memories
Now that you've gone
All dearly departed
Hoping something prestigious
Grows from this seedless garden
But it's like trying to capture air
From a fractured jar
To make an attempt
Of clearing my heart
Not to mention restart it
Seamless spent broken leaves
Hedonist and facetious facsimiles
While I soak in mass energies
To resuscitate dead memories
Just casually discuss the minor details
Of all my sad hapless dreams
Don't try to act or pretend to believe
If you lack a fractured tendency
You'll simply react
To your own hopeless epiphany
While laughing you'll remember me
Aside from the venom presented
Within my resentful history
It's the recurring action persistently
Building traction for another
And once again
Redacted epiphany
Prolifically trapped
In a perdition subliminally
I have personally granted permission
The eternal conditions of a prisoner
Taking backward steps so timidly
It's become tradition
So twisted and vivid...
All I see are projections
Protecting corrections
Rejecting reflections
Until the message infested
Keeps me second guessing
Or stressing and searching
For a holy blessing
It's a mess
I've run amok
There's no abstaining the jest
Honestly I do confess
The only promise I will keep
Is to remain taking the test
And lay the rest six feet beneath
But I'm always second best
The runner-up stumbling
Surreptitiously obsessed
With my mind's eye manifest
Delusional and mumbling
To compare with the rest
I'll use my heart less
And cease the thunder rumbling
If I could attest
It was my absolute best
That used to mean something
Revised 22 Sep 21
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