I would feed you crepes
while the city sleeps,
every night,
until I die
or until my whisking arm
gives out.
When I gasp with adrenaline
as you corner the road,
does it drive you crazy,
as you drive me
mad
to buy doughnut holes
at 3 A.M. ?
We share an addiction to lazy behavior,
but differ in our love
for coke,
for coffee.
For what?
When we broke years worth of tension
I thought it would be
more like
snapping a dried, autumn twig,
the crack of a whip
or dropping
a florescent tube light-bulb.
Instead it was that of morphine;
warm and gradual,
if at all.
I'm sorry I made such delusions,
held you high as perfection:
an irretrievable beast.
I thought myself shallow
in thinking
I was finally better than you
at something.
Now I think myself shallow
in thinking
I could do without you
because of your behavior
or lack there of.
I was wrong.
I thought I found
the disappointment
enough to
quench my lust.
But I'm yearning
just as ever,
even knowing what I'm missing.
So I'll sit here,
knowing we crave
the same basics
and differ
in specifics.
I'll sit here writing
as I watch you sleep.
I'll wait
as our ****** tension
slowly grows back,
like a forgotten
perennial ,
once again
making itself evident
and waiting for the
shing
of the garden shears
to snip its stalk
like a taught thread.