i yearn to change
the world
but i can't seem
to change myself
i fear the gears have ground to a halt
and i've been left to gather rust
between the teeth of tired cogs
in the jaws of this dysfunctional mess
am i nothing more
than a bent tool
a broken fool trapped
in self-detesting testament
piece
me together
with anger anguish
and mistrustful lust
the aspects of a psyche
peeled back
like flayed fingernails
exposing fresh flesh
i've resolved
to be a nightly victim
of my own failing
mental health
i may be pointing fingers
and smashing mirrors
but i haven't been avoiding
the abject reality
a reflection
i know reflexively is inexorably
responsible for this current
catastrophe
i
am my own
sworn
enemy
a contagion
jealously infecting
everyone and everything
i've tried to love
though i dream of death
every evening
i continually awaken
disappointed
Jul 18, 2016
Jul 18, 2016 at 12:00 AM UTC
i yearn to change
the world
but i can't seem
to change myself
i fear the gears have ground to a halt
and i've been left to gather rust
between the teeth of tired cogs
in the jaws of this dysfunctional mess
am i nothing more
than a bent tool
a broken fool trapped
in self-detesting testament
piece
me together
with anger anguish
and mistrustful lust
the aspects of a psyche
peeled back
like flayed fingernails
exposing fresh flesh
i've resolved
to be a nightly victim
of my own failing
mental health
i may be pointing fingers
and smashing mirrors
but i haven't been avoiding
the abject reality
a reflection
i know reflexively is inexorably
responsible for this current
catastrophe
i
am my own
sworn
enemy
a contagion
jealously infecting
everyone and everything
i've tried to love
though i dream of death
every evening
i continually awaken
disappointed
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