Brushing up against me, except
a caress isn't as welcome as a whisper
Dragging prehistoric pills into my nose
with the pull of memories that
prefer to stay whispers
It's these desensitised nights
that remind me of what was
once so loud
And loud is quiet to me what is inaudible
to others under yellow spectrum
of silver-gloss, enough in god and
without loss
I swallow the capsule and taste the
nothingness and shake my head to
hear ringing and see other, rarer
colours- ones your eyes could hint at
And to be an ultra-deterrent that
kills without touching the lives it is
bluffing, I cannot suture the fracture
in my future
to be god, no
To be semi-real, perhaps
I am not as prolific as
I pretend to be
Each facet is another winter day
I wish wasn't sunny and mocking me
To be what you define reality,
you are a part of me
And a part of yourself is what
you have let me define
My harbouring hunger havocs soft
And if what I inhale makes me
become transparent, will you still
see me?
What's real isn't what I can reveal,
my dear
Isn't it broken, the alignment in our stars
To shift the glow, evermore
I determine the order
You determine me
Isn't it irreparable, the crackling phenomenon
existing between our gazes
We both know it is, and we love to
fall victim to it,
gracefully or not
-c.j. and Joshua Haines
Feb 13, 2015
Feb 13, 2015 at 11:20 PM UTC
Brushing up against me, except
a caress isn't as welcome as a whisper
Dragging prehistoric pills into my nose
with the pull of memories that
prefer to stay whispers
It's these desensitised nights
that remind me of what was
once so loud
And loud is quiet to me what is inaudible
to others under yellow spectrum
of silver-gloss, enough in god and
without loss
I swallow the capsule and taste the
nothingness and shake my head to
hear ringing and see other, rarer
colours- ones your eyes could hint at
And to be an ultra-deterrent that
kills without touching the lives it is
bluffing, I cannot suture the fracture
in my future
to be god, no
To be semi-real, perhaps
I am not as prolific as
I pretend to be
Each facet is another winter day
I wish wasn't sunny and mocking me
To be what you define reality,
you are a part of me
And a part of yourself is what
you have let me define
My harbouring hunger havocs soft
And if what I inhale makes me
become transparent, will you still
see me?
What's real isn't what I can reveal,
my dear
Isn't it broken, the alignment in our stars
To shift the glow, evermore
I determine the order
You determine me
Isn't it irreparable, the crackling phenomenon
existing between our gazes
We both know it is, and we love to
fall victim to it,
gracefully or not
-c.j. and Joshua Haines
