this simple change of season
brings upon silent surrender
turning over in my head
the way we left these things between us
diverging from the script
we found ourselves out there adrift
on an ocean made of your tears
i’m sinking down below
the first snowfall of the season
brings a newfound fear in me
that the chasms that grow
between us are too far beyond reckoning
i’m up here at the mountaintop
looking upon our world below
but if i’m to be perfectly honest
there’s nowhere i want to go
i wish i knew how to let you go
i wish i got to see what would’ve grown
i was so afraid of what could be
the future without you scares me
but i can’t change what i can’t dream
the turning of the season
brings upon this secret grief
lost in my head and in
the sea of pervasive memory
there’s a stone we left in our driveway
we painted with our names
we could’ve figured out how to make it work
but we let it go anyway
a song out to the universe,
an endless rondo of desire
that the songbirds are all singing
amidst the crackling of fire
there’s a halo round the moon,
a circumlunar rainbow dancing
on the starlight ‘round your head
and in my heart i hear us laughing
i wish i knew how to let you go
i wish i got to see what would’ve grown
i was so afraid of what could be
the future without you scares me
but i can’t change what i can’t dream
this sempiternal season
rolls over onto forever
an endless summer sun
to hold us in permanent fervor
desire, desire,
soon to become fire
i hold you like
i’ve never held anyone before
i live with your ghost now
the sweet smell of you in my senses
memories burned into my mind’s eye
and i’ll go on and pretend this
isn’t bothering me anymore
but god i know it does
so afraid i was back then,
so afraid of your good love
i wish i knew how to let you go
i wish i got to see what would’ve grown
i was so afraid of what could be
the future without you scares me
but i can’t change what i can’t dream
i couldn’t be what you needed me to be
Oct 30, 2025
Oct 30, 2025 at 1:55 AM UTC
this simple change of season
brings upon silent surrender
turning over in my head
the way we left these things between us
diverging from the script
we found ourselves out there adrift
on an ocean made of your tears
i’m sinking down below
the first snowfall of the season
brings a newfound fear in me
that the chasms that grow
between us are too far beyond reckoning
i’m up here at the mountaintop
looking upon our world below
but if i’m to be perfectly honest
there’s nowhere i want to go
i wish i knew how to let you go
i wish i got to see what would’ve grown
i was so afraid of what could be
the future without you scares me
but i can’t change what i can’t dream
the turning of the season
brings upon this secret grief
lost in my head and in
the sea of pervasive memory
there’s a stone we left in our driveway
we painted with our names
we could’ve figured out how to make it work
but we let it go anyway
a song out to the universe,
an endless rondo of desire
that the songbirds are all singing
amidst the crackling of fire
there’s a halo round the moon,
a circumlunar rainbow dancing
on the starlight ‘round your head
and in my heart i hear us laughing
i wish i knew how to let you go
i wish i got to see what would’ve grown
i was so afraid of what could be
the future without you scares me
but i can’t change what i can’t dream
this sempiternal season
rolls over onto forever
an endless summer sun
to hold us in permanent fervor
desire, desire,
soon to become fire
i hold you like
i’ve never held anyone before
i live with your ghost now
the sweet smell of you in my senses
memories burned into my mind’s eye
and i’ll go on and pretend this
isn’t bothering me anymore
but god i know it does
so afraid i was back then,
so afraid of your good love
i wish i knew how to let you go
i wish i got to see what would’ve grown
i was so afraid of what could be
the future without you scares me
but i can’t change what i can’t dream
i couldn’t be what you needed me to be
always
