Sometimes I wonder
All the time actually
if it's bad that I think about things like this
You've given me very few reasons to feel
Any way that isn't bliss
but I still find myself questioning
things I shouldn't think
I ask myself
What it means to
Be In Love
because in the end
isn't it just a word?
even though I know it's a feeling too.
I ask myself
why do I always put you first?
and forget about myself
Because I'm good at blending in
I'm good at conforming
to avoid conflict
and make myself more likeable
In the end,
I'm not outstanding.
I'm not really funny
or interesting
or unique
I'm not really very pretty either.
So is that why I conform?
To be what I imagine you want
Because I'm afraid of losing you
even though you've never given me a reason
to believe that you'd leave me
if I were anything but myself
Is it really Love
If I ask these questions?
Will I ever find an exact match?
Someone who thinks like me
or act as I'd expect?
Because my expectations are unrealistically high
So I'd never find someone better, right?
I blame the movies.
Mar 14, 2018
Mar 14, 2018 at 2:50 AM UTC
Sometimes I wonder
All the time actually
if it's bad that I think about things like this
You've given me very few reasons to feel
Any way that isn't bliss
but I still find myself questioning
things I shouldn't think
I ask myself
What it means to
Be In Love
because in the end
isn't it just a word?
even though I know it's a feeling too.
I ask myself
why do I always put you first?
and forget about myself
Because I'm good at blending in
I'm good at conforming
to avoid conflict
and make myself more likeable
In the end,
I'm not outstanding.
I'm not really funny
or interesting
or unique
I'm not really very pretty either.
So is that why I conform?
To be what I imagine you want
Because I'm afraid of losing you
even though you've never given me a reason
to believe that you'd leave me
if I were anything but myself
Is it really Love
If I ask these questions?
Will I ever find an exact match?
Someone who thinks like me
or act as I'd expect?
Because my expectations are unrealistically high
So I'd never find someone better, right?
I blame the movies.
Is it really a good relationship if I'm constantly conforming? Even if that's my personality and my expectations are too high.
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