I am prancing around this empty room, desperately trying to find something to love
About me, about this human who’s standing in front of the mirror staring at me
She’s no fun, she’s a heap of bore and a cumulation of disorders –
I hope you know where I’m getting at –
At first life revolved around food and weight;
Who knew self-hatred and voluntary self-mutilation were included in the package too?
Gone were the days where I sat alone crying at night over the extra piece of bread I ate for dinner
Gone too were the days I stuffed myself with laxatives and cut myself with blades like a sinner
However, not gone you are. You lifted me up when I was down yet pushed me down when I was up.
I can’t decide if you are an angel in disguise of a devil or a devil in disguise of an angel but
I know as of right now it is hard for me to let go of you…of me.
Because a part of me is no longer you, I am no longer an entity of my own
– I am you.
Aug 8, 2015
Aug 8, 2015 at 9:32 AM UTC
I am prancing around this empty room, desperately trying to find something to love
About me, about this human who’s standing in front of the mirror staring at me
She’s no fun, she’s a heap of bore and a cumulation of disorders –
I hope you know where I’m getting at –
At first life revolved around food and weight;
Who knew self-hatred and voluntary self-mutilation were included in the package too?
Gone were the days where I sat alone crying at night over the extra piece of bread I ate for dinner
Gone too were the days I stuffed myself with laxatives and cut myself with blades like a sinner
However, not gone you are. You lifted me up when I was down yet pushed me down when I was up.
I can’t decide if you are an angel in disguise of a devil or a devil in disguise of an angel but
I know as of right now it is hard for me to let go of you…of me.
Because a part of me is no longer you, I am no longer an entity of my own
– I am you.
