You know so much in your absence
I was staring right at you
crimson brown eyes chambered years
you were so quiet
angel
lips stumbling to
but..
stayed still
cheeks raised high to smile
leading my vision to the corners of your eyes
that casted the most light
those square little diamonds
shining over the whole room
strangers ate pizza
feeling warm
and I recoiled
inside my cold self
scared and in awe of everything you made so simple
and beautiful
the way your body swayed
to the next
call
you hear
leading my ears and a thousand hands after
listening to
hidden compositions
tale melodies for the listeners chior
feathers from your mother
chill breeze you brought to me
to whisper
to recapture a dying breed
to the
unnoticing
but I can't stop noticing
all the places where you are not
and all the story lines that have been tucked away never to be laughed at again
because youre gone
Im holding onto memories more than moments happening
and I beg to broken down turned backs to
repair me with one ear
to help bathe this tarnished mind
withered from
cigarette smoke
blunt smoke
smoke from
burning pages
of letters I can
never
*******
send
to say
I miss everything
I see nothing
of everywhere
right where you should be
to tell me things
I can't say to myself
I miss you from a darkness
so luminious
I can see your shadow clearly
because youve touched me
and bent yourself in the shape of my mind
to say
things in a language
I must imagine
because I can't spell any of the words
Im writing to you on lined paper
Im saying every word with harsh breath
needing you
to take these letters
these pages
and fill the stars with them
I want to look into the night sky and see you reading them
with every twinkle
so
that
I
may
dream of you
again
and again
and
again
so I can
write
to tell
you
how I feel.