I wish I could touch you, only softly.
I wish I couldn’t hurt you.
I wish I wasn’t human so I could always make you happy.
But I know I will never be a god.
You were the one who saw me that day.
No one knew who I was, all they saw was a dumb girl.
You are my day one, first choice, number one pick.
I wish I could always make you happy, because maybe it was you who saved my life.
Or maybe that’s just what I say to justify your pain.
My pain of loneliness is pretty bad,
you are always the first one, so why can’t you be this time?
That night when you were taken by the devil, as you say, was bad.
But I know that I want to love you hard.
If you look side by side, it looks the same as she did.
And maybe it is.
I’ve grown,
but certainly not enough.
Maybe it’s the hormones, or the way my damaged mind works.
But if I could,
I would take away the knots in my stomach and the shock waves in my spine.
I wish I could be normal again,
like I never was.
I wish I couldn’t be this close to hurting you.
I wish I could just make me stop.
Jan 18
Jan 18, 2026 at 11:34 PM UTC
I wish I could touch you, only softly.
I wish I couldn’t hurt you.
I wish I wasn’t human so I could always make you happy.
But I know I will never be a god.
You were the one who saw me that day.
No one knew who I was, all they saw was a dumb girl.
You are my day one, first choice, number one pick.
I wish I could always make you happy, because maybe it was you who saved my life.
Or maybe that’s just what I say to justify your pain.
My pain of loneliness is pretty bad,
you are always the first one, so why can’t you be this time?
That night when you were taken by the devil, as you say, was bad.
But I know that I want to love you hard.
If you look side by side, it looks the same as she did.
And maybe it is.
I’ve grown,
but certainly not enough.
Maybe it’s the hormones, or the way my damaged mind works.
But if I could,
I would take away the knots in my stomach and the shock waves in my spine.
I wish I could be normal again,
like I never was.
I wish I couldn’t be this close to hurting you.
I wish I could just make me stop.